SHE.HER.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

hmm blog this before going to malaysia o.. hehe...
i'll be going this Sebana Cove on Thursday but dun worry i'll be back by fri i guess.. the most sat will be back keke... dun miss me too much kies.. but i noe for sure u all gonna miss me.. muahahha..
alright dun vomit la.. hehe.. but dunno would i be bored there.. cuz whole day will be having workshops here n there... sianz.. morale low when i get to noe whole day having workshops.. hai.. but nvm.. i'll get to see fireflies at nite.. hoohoooho...
hahah m once last thing.. juz nw last min back all the stuff cuz tml nite i'll be staying in the childcare as thursday early morning 6am hav to take off frm centre to tanah merah loh.. hahah taking ferry there.. hope dun get sea sick loh.. hahah i remb bao seasick tat time in msia.. whahaa...
hmm tml will be having pyjamas party as celebration in sch for teacher's day.. wahhha... unique rite.. hahaa.. that's sk Agape teachers' style.. hehe.. plus me u noe sure its gonna be crazy.. i'll be crazy in my pyjamas.. waahhaaaa..

hmm somehow i gotta discover 2 boxes of letters i used to receive during pri sch days.. juz saw the contents n i lol.... so funny.. n some even tok abt my 13plus yr fren Mr Keong.. haha.. hey bud.. got time i show u some huh.. heheh..

k la.. got to go slp le.. my throat is killing me.. n medicine is working drowsness on me...

take care frens.. i'm gonna miss u all.. i'll be back real soon k.. keke.. MUACKS..

Monday, August 29, 2005

once there is this little girl
who always been such an angel
slowly as she grew
she sees the ugly reality

she started building walls ard her
she get no more hurt
and only the beautiful sky
until one day rain came pouring in

and the walls starting rumbling down
she sees an glowing light
coming nearer n nearer
she fears more when its so much brighter

she hid into the dark
deep down so dark
and where is she
inside her heart

searching her soul now....

she saw the rain come falling
washing clean
she sees an angel
she never sees anything so clear

the angel touches her
the face was so familar
she sees so often
that she din realise

she tot faith n trust has left her long ago
until now she saw the angel
he came right beside her
gave a pat on her head

a gentle touch that she never felt before
she crack to tears
she felt saved
saved from darkness

been thru so long
she found
was found
saved

she is still waiting
for him to say
let's go back to the beginning
when you first born
when you first cried
then you will never cry alone
but in my arms
always
"you are safe with me"

heard upon this
i cried...

Sunday, August 28, 2005

yup decided its only this..
and its the norm i choosen..
no more unusual nor excitment.
norm is wad i choose

i had heard about this..

ever felt that liking someone deep down
is the best thing you knew
did you know admiring someone from far
is the nicest distance
and still liking you
is the most precious feeling

its something deep down that wouldnt change

did you felt the same way..

would you give someone like this a chance..

i would..

dreaming of you now
all was like a dream

everytime my hair was wet
you will dry them with your hands
i love it when you do that
i love it when your hands mingle my hair

everytime when tears upon my cheeks
your hand will touch my tears
i love it when you do that
i love it when you always know to dry them

...

and who is this hugging me so tight?

Sunday, August 21, 2005

i came to realise some things..
i'm happy wif wad i hav nw.. my family rwds collegues n frens.. and amazing after so long all my 19 yrs.. i nw realise.. the best thing i asked for has been always ard me.. no matter wad i met.. happiness or sadness i hav someone to share wif...
my buddy i had.. known him for 4 or 5 yrs.. always being there for me.. knowing the best of me.. in the past i used to hav confused feelings for him.. n nw i noe.. he's imprt to me yet tat not liking someone its a special person whom u can find to share.. perhas tat wad call soulmates i guess.. i'm lucky to realise tat.. and thanks... i'm blessed
my sisters... be it seeing them once a week or longer than that.. its becoming normal.. we used to be hanging out almost every single day.. but we nw came across that each of us has our own path to live.. but still glad tat our frenship din end there due to the less time we spent together... i'm blessed for that..
rwds.. thou i get lesser n lesser time wif u guys.. but its makes me warm when i see u guys,, be it how long i never see u guys but yet i dun feel like a stranger wif u guys.. n tat's simply a treasure.. i'm veri blessed..
and bus guy.. thou had a someone but seeing on bus is still a pleasure to work... hehe.. blessed oso..
lastly.. i realise.. someone out there.. i'm surprised.. after so long.. tot everything is back to normal.. but nw its unbelievable.. i nw couldnt look straight into ur eye.. couldnt breathe well sittin just beside u... couldnt speak normally.. heart juz beat faster.. waiting juz makes my heart fonder,,, n the more concern shows the more it touches me.. gentleness kills me nw.. am i blessed for this too???

i'm totally blessed..

Friday, August 19, 2005

oh no... school's virus is attacking me.. after this one whole week of cleaning up their diarreoas n vomit.. i'm *bingo dio this stupid virus.. so painful... diarroea n vomittin.. so sianz nw.. juz going to slp i guess..

totally wiped out todae..
*deadly nw..

Thursday, August 18, 2005

hmm gonna rush this.. cuz i wan to see superstar finale.. hehe.. but i got alot to say..
nvm.. firstly.. wad's wrong wif the world.. or izzit we create our own trouble.. hai..
but dun care la.. todae happy can le...
forget the trouble part la..
hmm yeah.. 1st of Sept.. YEA,,,,,,,, i'm goin to malaysia.. going to sebana cove.. yea..... so so happy... boss treat sia... wahhahahha.. so gdy gdy.. teacher's day retreat.. yippee....

i going oversea loh...

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

thanks sharon..

hmm yup bah.. like my blog..

i love myself..

sorry to myself..

i shldnt hate u...

hmmm tons n tons of things ahead..

came to know tons n tons of things..

realise all wad so called life nw

hai.. dun wanna talk abt anything nw..

so messy...

Sunday, August 14, 2005

i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
i hate u
i hate u

and the u is me..
no one els but me..

hate the bitchy u
hate the sluty u
hate the irritating u
hate the selfish u
hate everything of u

and the u is me
no one else but me..

wad there to hate abt..
ME....

Saturday, August 13, 2005

feelin damn damn bad.. dunno why.. so sianz.. stupid allies.. self-centred ppl.. wad wrong wif u guys.. hello.. cant u help me abit.. argh.. forget it.. u wont noe..

Thursday, August 11, 2005

alot of things slowly seem doesn't matter much to me le.. juz even a glimpse of happy will be gd enough already.. wad's there more to be everlasting.. nothin last anyway.. so i'm happy todae..
and fine thank you..

*who cares abt the allies.. dun give a damn..

hehe anyway tml photo-taking wif my class.. keke.. dunno wanna buy the foto anot.. keke..
haha and for once i'm on the cover page of the calender..

Monday, August 08, 2005

heheh.. so happy today.. but dunno why nw my nose is bleedin.. still haven stop.. dunno wad happen.. stuck a tissue in it le.. hope it stop.. maybe nt enough slp.. i still hav to cont to mark my books.. hmm tidae.. had lunch at neptune wad quite ok la.. thou look exp n food not bad but i waited till wan to faint le den the food came.. hehe but den later went to far east wif yinyin, doris n anna.. hahaa.. guess wad i bought a green halter top... whahahaa... yan i bought a bright green halter.. u'll scream at me.. cuz its 17 onli.. but u soon can buy tat pepper plus one le.. weri nice on u leh.. keke.. i'm goin black on wed o... hehhe... hmm catch the Charlie n The Choc Factory.. i tell u its a veri amazing show.. it surely tempt u to eat more choc i tell u... bao lets go watch.. i dun mind watching again.. kek.. den hahah after movie.. guess wad.. went to bugis eat tian tian steamboat.. hahaha... we were so damn full... hahaha.. yeah i finishin markin soon.. but onli able to finish the maths wrkbk.. tml den cont. english one.. keke.. got to go slp le.. tml its party time in sch.. yea... hahah... holiday on tues.. its Singapore's Birthday... Happy 40th Birthday o.. keke... hmm today so paiseh., all expense on boss.. haha... i will work hard de... keke...

nite everyone...
muacks..
i'm so happy...

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

hmm din get to block over the weekends.. n nw i'm here loh..
helloooooo !!!
heheh.. had a great nite wif rwds at ChinaBlack on sat...
hahah had great laughs on tong's stunts.. yea??? hehe.. hai having great pain nw.. its killing me.. dunno wad wrong stuff went to my stomach... *ouch*
learn frm my students.. *blink blink* Tr Peggie my stomach pain pain.. wan to put oil.. wahahha.. ha me crazy le lah.. hmm this whole week not taking bus to work.. haiz.. miss the bus g..... wahahhaa.. hai onli if i had all money in the world.. onli if i'm a wealthy ger.. den no guys wld impress me.. haha.. yea.. wonderin wad ur love can bring.. nah... haha.. nvm..
hmm heard this frm a fren.. " anyone can fall in love with anyone.. love is mysterious and torturing at times but still you are willing to undergo the torment....so heartbreaking and sad at times but the hope of having a happy ending makes you feel its worth the risk of having ur heart broken and hurt.....humans are like tat....too emotional...unable to handle such stuff logically.... "
and i think.. if can be logical.. it wont be love anymore huh.. cuz love is magical.. a splendid chemistry between ppl huh..
so love is simple in heart.. yet complicated in actions huh?
but for me.. love still is simple..
love someone means love wholeheartly..
and i always do that.. yet when being hurt.. i'll be totally hurt...
frens told me not to be so guilable or silly..
am i>????
guess so...
no pain no gain???

even its pain everywhere.. u cant probably get ur gain..
cuz love got no guarranty..