SHE.HER.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

走在风中　今天阳光　突然好温柔　
天的温柔　地的温柔　像你抱着我　
然后发现　你的改变　孤单的今后　
如果冷　该怎么渡过　天边风光　
身边的我　都不在你眼中　
你的眼中　藏着什么　我从来都不懂　
没有关系　你的世界　就让你拥有　
不打扰　是我的温柔
不知道　不明了　不想要　
为什么　我的心　
明明是想靠近　却孤单的黎明　
不知道　不明了　不想要　
为什么　我的心　
那爱情的绮丽　总是在孤单里　
再把我的最好的爱给你　

不知不觉　不情不愿　又到巷子口　
我没有哭　也没有笑　因为这是梦　
没有预兆　没有理由　你真的有说过　
如果有　就让你自由　这是我的温柔

*describe now best*
~signing off~

Thursday, February 17, 2005

hey knock knock.. does it matters???

hmm juz seen the 9pm series.. so sad.. the ger asked the guy..
"there are 2 gers.. one is ugly but with a kindhearted ger.. the other is pretty yet had a vicious heart. who will you choose?"
haha the guy replied the pretty one.. noe wad's his reason.. can changed the pretty ger's heart.. hahah.. so does looks matter.. yes it definetly concerns.. so if anyone says nope looks does bothers.. he or she is truely lying.. bullshit.. unless the one who said looks doesnt matters is someone who is inconfident of their look.. den this someone truely meant it.. reality is juz such a cruelty..

hmm why why??

but in this cruelty.. thank god there's a thing called appreciation.. as it always feel gd to be appreciated.. yeah?

i regretted tat i used to take for granted n not noeing to appreciate.. thou its too late but it taught me a precious lesson..

~signing off~
.i may not noe wads ahead but i noe i'm looking at you now.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

hai..
startin a blog wif haiz... everyone seems havin such a bad begining for this week n todae is onli tuesday.. hmm yesterday was quite TL for me.. had hell of time at school.. the children had CNY celebration in the mornin.. at least it was fine.. den later.. everything was like shitty messy.. rushing the kids to eat den bath.. den everything was in a mess.. and hell lots of the CNY goodies were fully packed everywher of my classroom shelfs.. i was damn unhappy.. all things wasnt taken out.. the kids's milkbottles n com bk wasnt out.. n having a kid who attempt to bite anyone at all times.. this all is cranky me up.. n the teachers were so damn it not coorperate.. had a hell of time doing everything..

den today the same old thing happened.. i was damn unhappy.. heard tat 4 teachers had gave their resignation letter.. it wouldn't be surprised i'm next.. and the most fuck up thing is my 2 partners were like everythin none of their bizness.. shit man.. and heard tat the management not employin another tr to replace one of my partner.. and heard tat they even wan me to teach the nursery and playgroup.. wah damn it.. askin me this unexperience n having everything done so like shit.. to teach two group of children.. and my pay is the lowest yet i do all tat dirty job.. my collegue told me i could get a less stress job wif the same pay.. and argh was all in me,,

ARGH.. ARGH.. WAD THE FUCK..

~signing off~

selfish people..

Saturday, February 12, 2005

hmm todae is the fourth day of cny le.. so happy cuz every visiting were so packed haha.. went straight to lex hse after my work.. all thanks to daddie his speedy driving.. wait at the lift for rwds ben an sharon qinyao mond yan bao nget keong felki tong paul n.. den we headed upstairs. den heard Alpha barking.. hahhah.. den lex start his magic tricks.. hahah.. n we r " amazed" keke.. den had a fun steamboat session.. lots of arguements.. hehe.. we r such big grp tat hav to spilt 2 round.. but paiseh.. lex's dad like tat serve us..
den we started our gambling den.. a inside and outside one.. black jack round outside n majong round inside.. hehe.. hmm i no win no lose.. so alright.. at first tot of takin cab hm le.. den yan say go her hse.. n off we go headin back walkin.. hahha.. din noe till tong held a cab.. haha me tong yan n dick.. reached in swisf time.. den we hang ard at ben's void deck awhile den i n yan decided head hm le.. had a long talk at park.. hmm trash out lots of things.. n done lots of things.. hey sorry hope u wont think so much.. sorry if it cuz u trouble.. juz wanna let u noe..

~signing off~
a song for CNY

On CNY day
we dressed so bright n gay
new clothes new shoe new handbags
to keep our hongbaos safe

on CNY day
we all juz wan to say
to daddie mummy grandpa grandma
uncle aunties
and to you
Gong Xi Fa Cai
Gong Xi Fa Cai

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

phew.. juz had my mood spoilt..
both my colleagues are resigning.. so sadded..
leaving me all alone.. couldn't take it well..

dunno for gd or bad..

gettin out of radar recently.. so mani stories wif none of my existance.. really dunno wad to say.. feel sad.. feel sorry feel bad.. after all i'm not so perfect.. n not a suitable fren after all.. i'm juz out off the border.. feel so useless n so unable to get back the feeling i used to hav.. wad's wrong wif me.. or wad's wrong wif my life.. really r we in different world oready.. cant make anythin right..

suddenly i lost the familarity towards u.. ur back begun to seems so far frm me.. far tat unable to reach.. ur sadness makes me so useless n not noeing wad to do.. i hate this feeling n cant get it y am i feeling this way.. it seems like i'm outta ur life soon or even nw.. where's the care n share time oready.. i felt the blame n cant help but blaming myself.. felt so helpless yet there's nothin to feel better.. onli i'm sorry.. u noe.. I AM SORRY.. dunno y gettin frustrated wif myself more n more..

ARGH ARGH ARGH....

~THE END~

Sunday, February 06, 2005

so HAPPY.. i got a veri nice peanut shape table.. c the foto below.. nice isn't it.. heheh.. but troublesome table was bought at Ikea todae.. tot of goin there eversince last yr b4 new yr.. nw den get to go there.. hahahha.. todae after work.. dad drives us to Ikea.. n i hadn't eat the whole day.. we ate at the Ikea Restaurant.. wow the food was very nice.. no wonder its queuing all times.. but so sad i din get to eat the delicious meatballs.. ( dad say he ate before n it was fabulous, sob sob)
den we go racky for my table i longed.. at first din really had any specific table to buy but eye for a not too short n not to high table.. flip thru the ikea mag and i saw a nice one.. and we headed for the table section.. wow lots of tables n chairs.. n i finally had a love at first sight with this peanut table.. call VIKA MANNE.. i bought the white one.. its 89 on the mag but i bought at 69 onli.. heheh.. discount or wad.. hahaha.. oh yah n bought adjustable legs for the table.. n all the way went to the cashier counter to pay.. and wif everythin we head hm.. saw a huge fire at the forest near sengkang.. n lots of fire engines wor.. can see black smoke everywher..
Reached hm.. i start packing everythin cuz i gettin fid of my cupboard n com table.. den while daddy fixin the table he found a shockin news.. we were given the wrong leg for the table.. its not the adjustable one.. oh no its oready 9.20pm n the shop closes at 10pm.. me and my dad we rush to the car and chiong all the way to ikes which is at alexandra rd.. when i lived at punggol.. heheh.. guess wad we reach there at 9.45pm.. wow.. hahah.. my dad sure noe how to drive.. thank god there's no traffic jam.. if nt we wont be able to change le.. n no table for me tonite le.. hehhe..
they refund back the money to us n we rush in to take the legs.. this time we hack care le.. die die oso muz check first.. cuz previously the salesperson says muz pay oready den can check things inside.. nw dun bother cuz i dun wan another trip down anymore.. kind of scary rushin dwn like tat.. we done every checkin n off to queue for paying.. happily we headed hm.. hehhe.. and nw the table fixed n i'm nw typing on my new table.. heheh.. so damn happy le.. new yr got new table.. hehhe.. and peanut shape somemore.. hahahha.. so cuteeee....
Yyyyawwwwwn.. todae rush too mani things le.. veri tired nw.. plus i juz ate the medicine for flu... cant tahan le.. sleeeeep le....

~signing off~ dozing off...... having a nice happy sleep.. hehe..

My New Peanut shape Table~~~

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Before born i came with nothing
After birth you came along to me
When you were everything
i gave everything

It wasn't forever as you said
and gone was all you left
thru with bunch of clueless guys
you came back to fit in

Life perks as you live
till you leave a word friend
i gave my faith away
till another you came again

I had enough of passerbys
no more faith
no more confident
quit playing hide-and-seek with me
just come out from where you are

Don't worry the sky isn't grey yet

there's still to spare

don't wanna lose faith again

trying everything to gain

against all odds i will

even if bruises kills

so quit playin games

don't let faith lose again

lyrics by; Peg3dadam

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

wow.. took lots n lots of photos at my bdae chalet.. i really hope everyone enjoyed cuz i really do.. and thanks to everyone for ur presents and ur presence.. i'm so happy u all come.. but those who cant make it.. dun worry.. its ok..
we had lots of sections..

Friday 280105
i reach chalet ard 10 in the mornin.. got all food n waitin for it to defrost.. first to reach ron.. den 4 plus yan chanz tong nget n an comes.. n wif my present.. its damn big.. a piglet n a piglet cushion.. i love it.. thanks guys.. den came bao.. den paul qingyao lex n hock..
haha i saw keong n felki stunned frm far.. hehe oh its keong forgetful n got some delivery job cramp up.. but keong its ok.. dun worry.. ltr on finally dine came.. den we started bbq.. hehe.. its nget who start the fire.. den majong session began.. so mani exciting events, there's magic show.. card tricks n vodlka session.. haha had fun all nite till drop dead.. all of us squezing onto four beds.. haha imagine tat.. i had a great laugh.. remind me of wad tong says abt an incident.. wahahahhaa.. hey ger i tink u fume when u see this.. keke..

Saturday 290105
as the sun rise.. all left except tong n yan to acc me till my mum comes.. so nice of them.. *touched* *sniff sniff*
keke.. they had a great long babaric fight.. while i carry on my sleep haha.. dun wish to get involve.. wait cuz trouble onli.. hahhaha.. den when mummy bought us kfc for lunch.. they headed home.. half drop dead.. hehe.. really thanks man..
hmm i had a short nap till evening time went to take my digtal cam frm bao.. great thanks for rushin dwn to pasir ris to pass me the cam.. *muack muack* *flying kisses.. heheh..
got everything done.. juz waiting for my collegues to come.. when some came.. me started to go get the fire up.. hahah n cuz wad.. it din succeed.. cuz i nvr start a fire b4.. n i got stuck.. i was thinkin die le.. my collegues coming in hunger n yet i haven start the fire.. oh thanks god.. caral's hubby help me start the fire... thousands of thanks man.. *phew* nearly gone case.. hahah.. den a lil teacher majong session was going on.. hahahha cute rite.. den my relatives come.. hahah.. i'm so blessed.. havin being dote by so mani ppl.. i'm veri lucky u noe.. den my fren came solo.. he was so paiseh sia.. hahah.. my relatives tot he was my who sia.. but no loh.. i emphasis onli a fren.. who ask he is a ns man.. onli book out on sat mornin.. hahahha.. sorry la turtle.. but u enjoy toking wif them rite.. hehe.. but really thanks for come.. great courage to come alone leh.. heheh..

Sunday 300105
woke up at 9.30.. being woke up by my 2 younger cousin.. they sleepin wif me for the nite.. hahah lots of laughter n classic... we headed for breakfast at mac.. hahah.. again lots of classics n laughter created by my 2 dear cousin.. hahaha.. back to chalet we packed everything n out we book out.. n sendin them home.. we headed home at 12.. drop dead on my bed after a short bath.. but sad i got to wake up at 2.. cuz hav to go buy new yr tops.. i haven got mine.. but end up i got myself a necklace n a watch onli.. end up wif no tops.. hahaha..

Monday 310105
due to last nite nt enuff slp.. got panda eyes today.. hahaha.. predicted by my fren.. oh but miz my children so much.. today had hell lot of fun wif them.. so sad got my fav callie n aurora is withdrawin today.. their last day.. *sobbie* today i got my work all done asap n rush down as fast as i can to meet Peiyi.. heheh so nice of her u noe.. treat me dinner at swensens.. i'm so lucky aint i... hehhe.. nw so blessed.. so contented and everythin sudden so bright.. hahaha.. got to jia you for my sch work le... muz chiong loh..

hmmm.. hear lots of things.. and lots of unpredictable.. and found some new discoveries.. a wonder fool yr.. as felki says a fruitful one.. heheh...

ok stop here loh...
~signing off~ feelin so blessed.. some how i still miss u...

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

and lastly me at chalet on the very last day loh.. happy moments.. cheers..