its Year 2005..
on the last day of 2004.. i had fun with rwds - Ben Mond Bert Hock Meng Nget n Bao..at Kbox.. Sang alot of oldies songs.. its hell lots of fun..
after tat we head to central park to meet Tong n Yan for countdwn to 2005.. den paul joined us dwn to pasir ris park.. alot ppl there celebratin.. cant help but we began to tok abt the Tsunami..
Had a long nite there..
before realisin i going hm the diff way.. i was followin out to the road..
they gone hm together..
while me the diff route..
i still dun feel like goin home..
but cant tell anyone.. cuz its late they shld get home..
wif onli 10 buck i not sure can go hm anot..
i tot of waitin to take bus hm..
but the sudden alone n fear came upon me..
home seems like a reality to me..
outside wonderin seems like paradise so freely..
home is full of flowin prob..
i hate goin home..
i am gettin sick n tired.. but nowhere to go..
i hate feeling such miserable in the first day of a new yr..
but this new yr seems like another yr of torturing..
everyday is like money money money.. live for the sake of money..
den wad the point of livin..
i regret wad i'm nw n regret becoming like this..
i hate regrets yet i hav them
u can never understand how i feel.. cuz u nvr get this in ur life..
u nvr got no choice but to work n support family
u nvr will troubled for the rest of the month when ur pay isnt high..
u nvr noe how its like to envy schooling kids
u wont noe how to deal wif urself
u wil nvr hate urself hav to head a diff way from those born on the same yr as u
its enough.. its never ending..
maybe life is onli an obligation..
if all of the above happens to u.. den welcome to my life..
~signin off~
sorry Yan makin u worried.. i will get better after shittin out all tis shit here..
hope everything is fine..
