its been weeks or days i din blog le.. keke.. cuz recently too tired to cum blog.. i noe lazy but been a teacher nw is really veri tiring worx.. totally exhausted when finish conquer all the lil kids n some rascals.. keke.. plus this few days i'm tied dwn wif sorts of sickness.. flu cough sore throat n headache.. i'm feeling damn sicky.. ARGH.. n becuz of this sicky feeling.. my dad wont let me out and i cant meet all my rwd jie meis and xiong dis.. sadded u noe.. plus its weekend i hav to stay all day at hm.. but todae i feel much better but dunno y i lose my voice bit by bit.. haha.. cant talk to kids tml le.. hahaha.. cant shout too.. hehe.. maybe i cant go work too. but sure will mish my lil kids.. and so sad my lil jim withdraw liao.. last fri his last day.. sob sob.. lucky i got his pic in my hp.. *consoled*

oh yah yesterday i use my half dead brain to work cuz its open hse for the child care.. so muz go.. and guess wad.. i'll be having 4 to 5 more PGs this coming Dec.. and i was cfm by Principal tat i'm continuing to teach the PGs next yr.. hahah.. *beams*

and oso.. i nearly forgot.. i cut my hair again le.. dunno its call shorter or lesser.. haha.. fellow jie meis.. tml u'll see.. keke

i cant wait tml i'll be hangin out wif my jie meis.. cuz i think i gotta change my passport foto too.. keeke.. hope i'll get better tml.. blesses

~sigin off loh..~ hope i recover soon..

Welcome To My Life
Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud so that no one hears you screaming

no you don't know what its like when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what its like to be like me to be hurt to to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down
you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like
welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside your bleeding
no you don't know what its like when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what its like me to be hurt
to feel lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down
you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like
welcome to my life

no one ever lied straight to your face and no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be ok
everybody always gave you what you wanted
never had to work it was always there
you don't know what its like,
what its like to be hurt to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when your down
you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you

no you don't know what its like to be hurt
to be lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life.

tr.Peggie @ 12.11am
Welcome to my life. a life u dont know wad its like.

its me at my daddy's car.. 

Me n Mayer.. taken by my new hp E600C o.. keke.. sooo happy 

Hey today i work early mornin 7am shift.. den finish my work at 12.. walk to pass my student's medicine n bolster.. n saw dad comin to fetch me hm.. when i reached hm..

No word said.. i nearly drop dead in the living room.. but some how i got to bath and out i go to tm.. to settle the scv thingy.. and argh.. wad i got frm the starhub was its like that.. and i was going.. wad the... nvm.. i n my dad go walking ard TM.. we long time din come tm together le. as we goin dwn to basement.. i saw nget an they.. suppose they buy food.. hahah.. cuz saw fair price bags..

den i went to yan hse.. alot of disrupt here n there.. but its ok.. time will calm.. juz remb to relax... cuz nothing ain't totally stressful..

sometimes things really happen for a reason.. but at times ther's things which dun happen for reason.. they juz happen..

sooo.. had a great nite cuz.. my xiong di mond n jie meis bao n gd fren liling help me greatly wif my colouring for the child care hse warming.. Great Thanks from my heart to u 3.. althou bao kinda of specially " creative".. keke.. i'm not being ungrateful u noe.. juz tat u specially creative among all.. keke.. but really THANKS... muack muack... haha n thanks to this colouring i remb u 3's fav colour for live wor.. touched rite.. keke... dun mention..

ok lah.. enuff le.. nw damn tired muz go dozing off liao.. nitez all.. i guess among rwds tonite i'm the first to slp loh.. keke.. ~signin off le~

11.45pm

Heard that you're doing fine
But why i just don't feel nice
Is it because you left me to a messy life?
I ain't understand why

What is wrong with me
I don't feel right
I don't feel belong here
My life is all messed up

You thought this is our happy ending
But i want you to know
I end up like you
I will give you what you want us to be

When time comes
Your forever meant nothing
You might think i'm happy
But i'm not going to be ok

Now you know it didn't end the way you want
All you said was regret
So dun try to hope you can make it
when u are already too late

You don't know what it's like to be like me

Lyrics composed by Tr.Peggie™ @ 12.16am 22-10-04

our lil children day party.. taking fotos wif their nice transport hats.. keke 

hehe.. Naughty Amias n Tr Peggie.. wahahha.. 

Cute lil Callie.. in Mac.. 

This grp foto of my N1 and PG.. Cuties.. 

ohh this is Lantern Minnie Mouse.. lil gers love it soo much.. 

finally we rched Chinese Garden.. its the 21mth old Artus on the pram.. 

this my little Amias.. a mischevious yet soooo cute boi.. 

ahh.. this is me and my little student Felicia.. pretty sweet ger rite.. 

Tonite i had alot of First Time. hehehe..
i first time bath in the child care cuz after work i got to attend my collegue's wedding dinner. and its my first time to attend wedding dinner on my own. the tot was great experience but the food n service.. erm.... let me tell u..

firstly i was placed to sit with my child care's bosses.. my first tot was.. oh oh no.. due to i wasn't familar wif them. but slowly its was quite ok.. then the dinner starts late.. its almost to 9pm when the first dish was served. and the waitress who serves us.. had sure a "nice black" face. hahaha. maybe cuz the auntie waitress was upset due to the late start of the dinner. but the auntie really veri the "CUTE" loh.. she can din give any warning and come refilling my supervisor n bosses' drink.. hahaha.. i really LAUGH OUT LOUD.. couldnt help it.. cuz her actions are soooo sudden.. tat mani times the jug she holding nearly fall on to the table.. *shake head* her actions too reckless liao.. but lucky no accident happen. blesses her..

but overall i had a really great time and fun too.. and my superviser soooo nice.. thanks to her i got ride home.. *bleams* thanks thanks. sooo here i am finish bathing and sitting in front of my com blogging this post. i was really veri happy today... so contented.. n got to noe all my collegues better.. gd thingy rite.. and suddenly got so mani god mothers and god sis le.. wahahahaha..

ok lah.. i going to watch tv liao ltr calling bao..
~sigin off le~ hope to see everyone tml.. i misses u guys soooo muchie.. muack muack, lots of kisses and hugs...

Title : Not Far Away
Writer : Peggie Tan

One moment the tot of love hurts was gone
all pushing me was courage
and again it hurts
makes me disbelief your forever

its so far away
Not much time left till its next morning
just before its too late
hope to be just right

wad to be afraid and wad not to be
there's no angel no devil
but only you and me

who deserves to endure pain
who has the right to hurt ppl's heart
who makes me feels
so its you
beside me
not far away

To My Special Friend

Your Friendship means so much to me
We Laugh Cried Share Our Deepest Secret
And Putting the World to Right
I treasure time we spent together
Thanks for your Encouragement
Inspirations Comfort and Praise over the years
Deep down in me
You stand rooted to my heart.

Without friends like every you.
Isn't complete.
Everything is part and parcel of life.
You Aint any passerby.
You are the influence in my life.

Throu out you stand by.
I sincere apologise for any miss i gave
so thousands and thousands of sorry
cant make one of my sincere appreciation of u..

As the aloner in family.
no one to play
no one to talk
no one to whisper

So friend u noe u are that important to me.
Ya?
All is left a word
Thanks.

finally i'm here blogging once again ever since my last blog on 29 sep. now its finally october le. my first blog in oct. hahaha. hmm its been a long week and i haven seen any of my rwd xiong dis and jie meis for almost 1 week to come. i busy workin, they busy studying for exam. Poor us. Boo Hooo Hooo.nvm i'm goin to meet them soon le. either today or tml. keke. mish all soooo muchie.. *muack muack*
haha.

hmm its been a real busy week. last week its lk busy cleaning and catorloging the whole centre. crazy rite gotta do all in 2 days. how to finish sia. tedious sia.den on mon had a totally busy day. cuz by 4pm, teachers all gone left me alone wif my playgroups and nursery 1. my first thought was OH NO.. how am i goin to handle 13 kids of the most youngest age grp. its a OH OH NO thing. but thank god they are nt so havoc, cuz i took out toys for them to play. phew~ but reaching 6.00 pm all kids frm PG to K2 will be joinin together. can u imagine 2 teachers handling 20plus kids each. but its nt so bad cuz thank god there an invention called.. the television. n now i really greatly appreciate the existance of tv.. hahaha. it really can keep children sitting on the floor quietly.(the least quietness u can imagine) wahahhaha. except for the hyper naughty ones. warning them is my everyday job. imagine my daily water drank was maybe lk ur 2 days amt. hahahaha
den slowly 1 by 1 was fetched by their parents and i sitting nw finally able to take a rest.

reached 7pm and still waiting for last kid to be fetch.. waiting waiting and waiting..

hmm its quite routine in working but onli there's always unexpected accidents or surprises happened. lk kids hitting, bitting, scratching, banging into each other.. haha.. they are kids mah.. wad can be prevent. den due to one case den everyday we gota keep the room airy and aircon wasnt on.. den almost all kids were sweating and fever.. haiyoyo.. den lucky i nwadays quickly on aircon liao. if nt wait they get fever sia..

Argh everyday is lk work, hm.. nothing else.. cant go find fren cuz knock off at 7..Agrhh.. not tat its no life.. but.. everyday finish work liao den so damn sianz.. no kids to play liao.. and go hm ish nothing but com or tv.. so no entertainment.. or someything to look forward to..

Hey Hey out there..
when will u come knocking on my door..
waiting and waiting is my daily routine.
and wad can i do but to write this.

Wondering Pondering Everyday
Waiting to hear the keys sound today
opening the door of my cell
but nothing come to release my yells

messy.
aggressive.
angry.
dissapointed.
hopeless.
aimless.
lonely.
its getting no where.
but here in me.

the hatred of left alone
came into me.
it hadnt got out
ever since it came.

waiting for fairy tale in my life
was like
waiting for rain in the drought

looking back.
nothing but regret filled my heart
how could u ever know
i was holding on somehow

the day when u know
i was so addicted to you.
nid u to hold me in arms
how to live when u aint where u are.
how do i know.


hmm a glimpse of my life...

~sigin off~ n to bath loh.. den go out for dinner at bedok loh.. celebrating mum and dad bdae together, Happi Bdae Both Libras. and today bought the Samsung X430 fo mummy.. broke liao.. hahaha.. gtg loh.. ltr den write another "glimpse of my thought"