for the first time i dun start with 3DaDaM..
and i wont liao..
today i got it.. i longed for it.. but again its gone..
i really tired of living like tat.. it really worries me how will it go for thse few moths.. will everything turn out as a better out come. or i'm left with nothing in my life after these few months.. i wanted badly to have some time to myself and spent with family and frens.. but wat this job juz cant spare me for that.. i badly missed those times spent with them.. and i now i felt so tired..i really hate the duration of the job but in otherwise.. i enjoyed working there due to my jiejie there.. they treat me gd and it makes me feel so bad if i wan to quit.. i really dunno wat to do le.. i noe i habe to take the job in order to solve the crisis now.. but the time spent with frens and family are lost.. and it never can be repay back.. everytime came upon to think till here.. i cant help it but too feel so painful inside.. and its like the heavy rain in my heart.. it all seems so hard for me to take it... i dunno i can bear for how long.. becuz of wat i habe to do now.. i lost alot of things.. its so hard for me to accept that lost i found.. i began to find unfamilar.. no matter in who.. i hatred this feeling but i'm facing it.. althou ppl always say.. bo bian its wat u habe to face.. but can anyone really face it w/o grumble.. i noe i grumble alot.. i juz cant help it.. i scared if i dun grumble.. i break into pieces.. thank god i got blog.. if not wher can i pour everything when everyone got their pieces of trouble to solve.. and hope they will get it solved..
bless everyone..
